To the Dash
It has been ten years since my mom died.
So much has happened in ten years.
An entire decade has happened without my mom being on this earth. To be honest, I don't know exactly how I feel about any of that.
Is there a certain way I'm supposed to feel? Am I doing the right thing in my life? Would my mom be proud of me today? Do other people feel the same way?
Throughout the day, I have been feeling very empty and fulfilled at the same time. I am empty because I no longer have a mother. She will always be my mom, yes. But she is not here with me, so do I really even have a mom? Will I ever feel her presence around me again? How do I continue through life without her?
These are questions I have asked myself every single year on July 31st, but this year has been different. Today, I begin to count the decades instead of just the years. Eventually, four or five more decades will pass, but the sadness and grief will never leave.
Eventually, I will be with my mom again.
Rest in Paradise, Momma.
Royalann Sara Webb
February 2, 1970 - July 31, 2007
So much has happened in ten years.
An entire decade has happened without my mom being on this earth. To be honest, I don't know exactly how I feel about any of that.
Is there a certain way I'm supposed to feel? Am I doing the right thing in my life? Would my mom be proud of me today? Do other people feel the same way?
Throughout the day, I have been feeling very empty and fulfilled at the same time. I am empty because I no longer have a mother. She will always be my mom, yes. But she is not here with me, so do I really even have a mom? Will I ever feel her presence around me again? How do I continue through life without her?
These are questions I have asked myself every single year on July 31st, but this year has been different. Today, I begin to count the decades instead of just the years. Eventually, four or five more decades will pass, but the sadness and grief will never leave.
Eventually, I will be with my mom again.
Rest in Paradise, Momma.
Royalann Sara Webb
February 2, 1970 - July 31, 2007
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